You know how people joke that
their grandparents had it so much harder than they have, with stories about how
they had to walk to school in the snow for miles, and it was uphill both ways?
Well, I actually have such a story.
It took place in the ‘90s in
Minnesota, where I got up every day at 4:30 a.m. to work at a bindery. It was
winter, and no busses went there. So I’d put on two pairs of pants, shoes and
boots, a hat, coat, scarf, mittens, two shirts and a sweater, and go out into
the cold.
The temperature got down to -18ᵒF
on some mornings. When I tried listening to music on the way there, the
batteries in my Walkman cassette player would freeze and stop working by the
fourth block. When I blinked, my eyelashes froze together, and I’d have to rub
my eyes with my mittens to get them pulled apart. I got frostbite on my fingers
a few times too, in spite of the mittens.
At the bindery warehouse we made
notebooks using a punch press machine, and if we weren’t careful, we could chop
off a finger in its sharp, circular blades. There were other assembly-line
types of machines, all of them ear-splittingly loud. I wore earplugs the entire
day to protect my hearing, especially when the shrieking horns went off to
signal the ending of lunch or break time.
It was a balmy 55ᵒF in the
warehouse, so we employees kept our coats and hats on, but had to remove the
scarves and mittens for our own safety. Sometimes people would remove their
jackets if they got warm enough while lifting boxes full of paper and books. We
made $5.50 per hour and there was no overtime.
I tried to do the same amount of
lifting as my male coworkers — most of them bigger than me — in order to stay
employed. The only problem was that I had a torn tendon on one of my thumbs
from an old injury that I couldn’t afford to get sewn up, because there was
really no health care for poor people back then. So when I lifted boxes, I
could feel a ripping sensation all the way up my arm. I learned how to
compensate and it healed somewhat anyway, though.
During lunch breaks I’d eat a
peanut butter sandwich and buy a 25¢ coffee from the vending machine. I’d read
self-help books and dream of a better life while my coworkers tried to rope me
into their multi-level marketing schemes. My dreams and struggles finally
helped me decide to get out of this drudgery and learn computers.
Today I’m a writer who’s had a
pretty livable career that doesn’t involve frozen eyeballs or shrieking horns.
I’m not king of the world or anything though, nor do I spend my time yachting
around and doing whatever I want, but I’ve come a long way. And although I’m
not ready to retire, it’s nice to know what I can accomplish and what I can
endure.
There have been setbacks
throughout this time, such as when I lost a tech support job in the Bay Area
and got a job cleaning toilets in a punk bar. But I learned something from each
and every job I had, and was damn glad to have them all. There have been times
I couldn’t get a job too, and those are the hardest times for anyone, because
it’s easy to feel like you’re not needed anywhere. But that’s never true.
On the day I got laid off from
the bindery, I found a kitten on my way home. He was in the middle of the
street, standing in a mound of snow, with frostbite on his ears. I put him into
my jacket and continued to my place. As I felt him purring from the warmth of
my many layers of clothing, I was not worried about how we would afford to
survive. We were alive for that moment, and that was all that mattered.
It’s all been downhill from
there.
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